When the magic begins..

Let's start over..

After the many times I write about what I feel, I don't think anyone knows what I exactly am. Who am I? What am I like? They have stayed undefinable. They probably still are. But let's start over, I mean, I started writing about years ago, I have changed in plenty ways.. Don't you think?

1. My identity

Name: Joanne Amarisa

Nickname: Joanne or Jo. Preferably Joanne.

Birthday: June 3rd

That's all you need to know.

2. Things I love

Photography:

It kind of fascinates me how I can capture moments of the world through a camera lens. It's like I'm grasping what's in front of me. It's like I have these variable of the world. Everytime I click that button on the camera and the shutter goes off, I feel like I captured time. I captured a split second. I captured the world.

Fashion:

My dream is to be a fashion designer in Paris. I want to be a legend, I want my fashion line to be what people are dying to have, I want my boutique to be one of the places in people's bucket lists, I want my brand to be known, to be noticed. I have a passion for fashion because it can easily define a person. It's definitely exciting too. I've always been into fashion, no specific reason, it's just that somehow everytime I walk by someone I take a quick but clear glance, then I think it over.. Was that outfit good? What can make it better? There's something inside of me that jumps over these ideas of bringing up all kinds of fashions. Something fascinates me that much about it.

Music:

Other than listening to music, I like to make music too. I never actually made a song officially, but I like learning guitar (still in progress, I'm getting there), I like playing the piano, I like singing (despite the fact I'm not exactly good at it). As I strum a guitar, I feel this musical vibe running up my body. I felt how beautiful music actually is. As I hit the notes on a piano, I like to imagine myself being on this stage in front of hundreds, playing in this big hall that can make every sound I make to be echoed to the back of the room. As I belt out my voice and sing, I feel nice. I especially like theatrical songs. It makes me feel exquisite, legendary, one of a kind. Because being "just another" doesn't cut it for me.

My mind ranges all around my head about so many different things everyday. All I can do then, is type.

I'm now on my way home from my cousin's house. It's actually pretty nice walking home in the night on a lonely street in my block...

The softest swishes of wind going through my hair, accompanied by the sound of crickets. Also, from my block, you can see a nice view of the lit up roads ahead. Car lights, street lights, I see it all. And also of course, the dark blue sky with the stars winking at me. Everytime I look among the blinking ones, there's always just one that doesn't blink. That one star in the middle of the sky, it stares into your very soul from miles and miles away.

The trees look slightly brighter from the lights, they look haunted but at the same time elegant and picture worthy. I'm sure there are cats by the alleys watching my every move, but they're nowhere to be seen.

I arrived home, looking forward to experiencing the night time walk all over again one day. So the stars, the trees, the lights, the cats, the roads, they can wait for me.

26-11-11

-Note from my cellphone

Ps : I sometimes get into a good mood to write so I type it into my cellphone's note pad :D

Hillsong Concert

Wow..

The epic-est moment of my life.

It was the first concert I went to, and oh how excited I was, when I entered Supermall Ballroom yesterday. Hillsong songs was played as I lurked around the room with my sister and my mom looking for 3 empty seats. But not long after that we finally got ourselves 3 very nice seats. It was pretty much in the center of the room and I can see the stage clear enough. Beside me was a well-said mysterious girl. She wore a lot of black, and seemed like she refused to communicate, or just interact with anyone in any way. She was quiet, and the only movement I saw from her was when she used her phone, and when she stood up then stood down again (as what the MC told the audience to do).

The event was amazing. It's to raise awareness on making a change to the generation. But before all that, you should know that the part where we all got excited was when the big chandeliers above me faded away the light that once was shone through. Everyone applauded.

Then a guy (well he's not the tallest, not the skinniest too, and he wore a well put beret on his head) walked onto the stage. He already had a microphone in his hand and started greeting everyone who by the way gave him a big applause. It's starting. It really is.

Almost an hour filled with the man's humorous acts such as : Inviting a few people up on stage to sing a song from Hillsong Live, giving the audience sound practice which practically was like "Aaaaaa.... A-yayayaya.."

And similar to that. Anyway, after all of the laughs and comedies passed, there was Tracy Trinita and one other man on the stage with her. But he didn't say too much, so I forgot his name :/ sorry.

Anyway, Tracy Trinita was a fashion model, who got a scholarship to Oxford University and got to travel to Europe and the US too. She was a stunning woman, because I liked her story about how a long time ago, she was very much against religions or Christianity. Then, one day, God came into her life. He found her and answered all her questions, which was very touching...

After some more questions, they showed us a video about the generation. About this city. And about pretty much everything else involved. They stated that 54% of the teenage girls around are no longer virgins. How one-third of the people who had abortion were actually teenagers. And a lot more to that.

I realized how exactly broken the generation right now can be. But I also realized that I could change that, in some way I'm sure. But anyway, teenage boys these days are basically like, "Have you slept with a girl yet?". And that's just plain sad.

But.. Enough about them :P

So, a group of 4 people from Indonesia's Hillsong College performed to us a song that they made. It was a very nice song, they have talent. Which made me realize what an amazing college to go to, Hillsong.

After that, Hillsong College of Australia performed more songs and it was amazing! But sadly on that part I was stuck in my seat, I wanted to join my friends but some other girls standing beside the mysterious girl near me just sung out the words of the songs and they danced so passionately (even though I'm not sure whether or not they memorized the words to the songs, and the way they moved around their body was energetic, but a bit disturbing) and I can't find a way to get through them to get out of my seat and to my friends.

And so in the end, I was like "Excuse me, sorry, excuse me, excuse me." then I rushed to be with my friends at their seats. We then walked to the front of the stage and first off, we just found an awkward but nice enough spot in the very right corner of the stage. We were still confused because there was a spot way in front of us which was more to the center but I'm not sure how we can get through. That's when this American gentleman wearing the event's T-shirt (and was bald, I assumed he was part of the committee) poked me on the shoulder, made hand gestures to show me the way to that spot we wanted and then I let my friends go down through the other people. I said "Thank you so much." and he simply nodded like "No problem." but he didn't exactly say that. It was definitely nice having a complete stranger be nice to you initiatively.

We then enjoyed the concert, but I had spent too much time being confused how to get out of my seat that we only got to be there for 1 song. Then we went back to our seats. Of course I didn't go back to my previous seat, I then joined my friends.

After Pastor Lee Burns (principal of Hillsong College) made a sermon, with a translator as usual, Hillsong Australia performed again! We were so excited once more, so we got the opportunity to just rush to the front, and the night ended really well.

We jumped up and down to the beat of One Way. We were enjoying an epic concert, we were praising Jesus, and we were rocking with the jam from the Hillsong band all at the same time. It was the most amazing night in my life. Everything felt so fun and just perfect.

I felt like a teenager. Isn't this what teenagers do? We go to concerts and have fun, rock out. And what made me glad was the fact that it was my first concert, and I was rocking out with my best friends. And instead of Justin Bieber, Linkin' Park, or Avril Lavigne or something like that, it was Hillsong :) So that means we praised Jesus for it.

And everything else felt perfect.

After the event finished up, I waved goodbye to my friends and then headed outside the ballroom with my sister and mom with a less-than-clear hearing that lasted for a short while. Well what do you expect? We were in a concert. So yeah.

We. Were. In. A. Concert.

Jammin' out. Having fun. But what makes this all better is:

It. Was. A. Hillsong. Concert.

ProgramOfEntrepreneurship - 7th grade, 1st semester

Trowulan. Majapahit. 'nuff said.

I'm not here to talk about my project, since I'll probably talk about it plenty of times. But I'm here to tell all of my readers about my group, and what we've achieved so far...

We're in the doing project and we've planned to continue it in my house tomorrow, since not many time can back us up. And the thing about my group is, they're all newbies of MDC. Well, not exactly newbies I suppose, it's been a month anyway! But they all just started in MDC JHS, I'm the only one to have went to MDC Elementary. Well, there is another boy, but he barely speaks! He keeps a gloomy face all day long, he won't speak more than 5 words to anyone the whole day, and he's been doing it since 1st grade, maybe more. I sure hope he doesn't arrive first at my house tomorrow.

There's Jessica - who has the same name as my sister - the girl with the glasses from St. Theresia.

She's nice, yes. Kind, sure. Smart? Yes, very I guess! But sooooooooooo talkative! (I'm so kind, I'm putting it in kinder words : talkative, instead of LOUD or BIGMOUTH or sumthin like that). It's like, anything that pops in her head, she'll say out loud. This part of her, can be annoying. CAN be annoying. She's the very opposite of me obviously. A lot of things pop into my head, but I have a longer distance between my thoughts and my mouth.

There's also Michael - who is very much like a chopstick that revolved to a boy - lol jk.

He's from Ciputra, which is good because Ciputra educates EVERYTHING about entrepreneur! And this Program of Entrepreneurship, having a boy from Ciputra in my school, would be VERY helpful. His first name is Michael, but in our grade we already have 3 Michael's. So we call him DJ. Because his last name starts with a D then J. :P very creative, huh?

There's Jason too - who happens to be a bit short - from Margie School.

He has large teeth so when he smiles it tends to be creepy. Not being all rude or anything, but he's not the tallest guy I know, comparing to DJ of course. I don't know, I should stop comparing people. Jason has the group's laptop. His laptop was a Macbook, just like mine, but with his laptop I can manage it better than he does. He's a kid full of ideas, and a very hardworking one too. Inside. He gets distracted easily, but he obeys the leader. Whoever that is.

There's also Sharon and Jonathan, but them I don't really know about. But if I do I'll be posting right up! :)

good night then.

S.H.A.P.E

In my awesome characters class, they have this saying in the book where they say God turns us into one SHAPE.

Spiritual Gifts

Heart

Abilities

Personality

Experience

With this, I am just going to cross check myself. Reflect on how I've been doing in this 'shape' so far. With 12 years of living, there should be plenty of things that I've achieved finely.

Spiritual Gifts

To be honest, this one I didn't get. What's exactly a spiritual gift when there are so many more gifts God gave me that I'm not so sure about is 'spiritual' ? Is it something that builds me up in faith? Is it something that makes me closer to God ? Because if it is somewhere between both, there are plenty ways.

I have an inspiring story in myself. Going through life, I didn't find any obstacles. Until one day, God noticed my path. Little did I know, I was slightly in the wrong way. I have amazing friends, I have a blessed family, I have a humble home, I have this awesome school, everything was just as beautiful as it is. Until one day...

This day, God made me realize that among all of the amazing and blessed things and people I'm surrounded and living with, I wasn't as spiritual.

I have to admit, I thought I was spiritual enough. Just enough.

I thought the point was to know God and to be a Christian. Little did I know, it was so much more.

Spiritually lifted, I felt. How He spoke to me, how I heard Him, and how it all worked out. The feeling was unbelievably amazing.

Heart

I need to improve myself on this one. Because basically, I was not the type of girl to be so. well. warm?

What I mean to say is... I share the same basic character with my sister, that's what my mom said. When people act dumb, it used to annoy me. When they actually are dumb, it used to annoy me too. But now, I gladly say I changed. :) Well, obviously it was God who changed me. But still, it's called achievement!

My basic characteristics and/or feelings, I have to admit, is still a part of me; the past.

Abilities

Proud to say it, I feel confident in my abilities :) For artistic and musical talents, it's in my blood. My dad was a painter slash pianist slash saxophonist, so that's one more thing to thank God for.

And for integrity, perseverance, and commitment-making preparations, my mom is always there to make me tougher and tougher everyday...

I can draw fashion. REAL good. I can play the piano. I can make art. I can do choreography, but my face isn't really the 'dancer' face, although to admit, I do enjoy dancing :)

Personality

I wonder what to say about my 'personality'. I'm a bit melancholic, I did a fingerprint test about last year and the results showed that I was 'auditorial'. The first word I thought was : Auditorium. But the psychologist specifically mentioned that it just meant I can learn more from hearing.

I find it easy to find beauty in a lot of things, which is good for me.

There are plenty more actually, but I can't mention them one by one of course.

All I can say is, everything basic about me, is good enough :) THANKYOU GOD!

Experience

Plenty of it. I believe everything that happened to me is just a storing for stories; which means I can someday tell everyone about the amazing and beautiful things God gave me in 12 years of living. And if I give a testimony later in life, then more and more beautiful years will come :)

Plenty to tell whoever-will-listen about how amazing God can be in their lives.

Plenty to experience how awesome my life is.

Plenty to give thanks to God for.

Plenty of everything, and more of more.

HOLD ON TO FAITH. LET GOD SHAPE YOU UP! :D

My Grammar Teacher - 7th grade, 1st semester

Okay, now I'm gonna do updates on what I think about Junior High. I assure you all that what I'm gonna post won't contain anything negative or anything like that but it's just my honest opinion, and I'm not JUDGING I'm just revealing of what I think.

As you all see, I chose for subject number one to be: My grammar teacher, a.k.a Ms. Sovi.

I think that's a funny name though, Sovi :| i dunno, it reminds me of my 2nd grade friend, Sophia, but that's another different thing.

Heh.

BUT ANYWAYY..

1) She's very fashionable, I can tell you that. Her clothes always match, and obviously, not many in my class notices that like I do. Not only does her clothes match, but they're very somehow glamorous comparing to other teachers. I actually noticed this from the time I met her. She was completely different. But I never talked to her about it obviously, you don't talk to English Grammar teachers about clothes.

It doesn't work that way. I think

2) She's, well, umm... how should i say this?? :/ umm.. fierce? She bangs on things in our classroom when she's angry. That's actually because Didi (my classmate) WHO IS A BOY BTW, screamed like a girl.

The incident reminds me of Youtube star, Fred.

But anyway, so after she heard him scream, in the middle of the classroom riot (i mean that literally), she banged the table and stood up and was like, "WHO TOLD YOU TO SCREAM??" and she smashed her hand on the whiteboard. A whiteboard eraser fell off btw.

Anger management please? I mean, okay sorry, but I wouldn't want to judge her like that, we all have moments where we want to scream or hit something. But the difference is, she literally did.

3) She's very good in convincing herself that she's powerful and she rules over the class. One time she actually held up a game in class, she drew over the floors with our class's markers. Then she told us to clean it up. Okay nice, real nice. But I do appreciate that she feels comfortable in our class.

So there you have it.. Our english grammar teacher, Ms. Sovi.

I wouldn't judge her or anything, she's very nice I'm sure, just got to know her a little deeper!!

:) :) latuh.